Just got back from Korea ....yes Korea again ...but this time it was pleasure the first week and work for another week....as i return home i know i have a big mission to accomplish...i hope with god's willing and support from my family members i hope everything will turn out well...since i got back ...everything seems to changed a little ....my family especially ..my love ones..plus grandma just passed away... so everyone seems at their mourning mood....plus today 31st of August 2010 reminded me of grandpa..when he left us all and the world on 31st of august 1995...same date as Malaysia's Independence day...which is today...i can feel my mum since now she had lost her dad and her mother recently....we all too oneday ....and thats fact...
For the past 17 years of my life.... i never felt this way ......they way of not celebrating eid with dad....i realized that for 17 years I've been the "dad" of the family .....and next year i will have my own insyakallah....never in my life....at the back of my head thinking it was such a burden for me to take these responsibilities which never given to me as if it was official.....but i know i had to take it even not by my choice.....
Yesterday my brother said to me "big brother, can we get new shirt for eid celebration"...i asked him "have you call dad and ask? ".......he replied "it's OK if you don't wanna get me,I'll use last year shirt".....i know it was just a simple favour but meant a lot to them....and the worst he was completely skipped my question....i've decided to bring them maybe this week...
At that moment of time i know as much as a brother i am ....as much as a father i am to my sibling..... boyfriend ,nephew,grandson i am to my family .....every single one in my life shape who I am today....
Soon I'll have a new family ....i really hope i can be a good husband,son,uncle,brother in law and son in law ......and i pray everyday ......hopefully ...to be a good dad to my kids ...oneday
